Solitude

It's interesting knowing that I head to bed each night with nobody really to interrupt me or use the bathroom next to my bedroom (though it could happen and that would be awkward).  To know that I'll be alone.  Left with my thoughts.  That's not really all that different from what I am used to, but it feels very different at night cocooned beneath layers of clothing and blankets.  My thoughts actually have the freedom to speak their mind and not worry about my expression and how people might react.  Definitely a bit surprising since I fancy myself as someone who can handle being alone pretty well and think I could actually deal with complete solitude better than the average bear.  No matter what though my life at this juncture and especially given this adventure is more and more in God's hands.  I can't handle or comprehend a lot of what is and will happen in my life and all I can do is look to God and know that I have no clue what's going on but He does.  It's a bit frightening, a bit exhilirating.  Not sure what all God is doing in my life right now means for next fall (school, move away, change jobs, who knows) or for this summer even, but I'm excited to see what He has in store.

I was also too warm last night.  Take that!!