Sitting on the Throne

Lies. The throne of lies is a difficult one to sit on. I can't help but sit on it from time to time and I don't like to admit it. Even if it's only sort of sitting on it. Like telling a half-truth. Something along the lines of, "I'll post some about the foundation behind why I'm doing what I'm doing." That could still happen while I'm on this road trip with my mom and sister, but more than likely it won't and I'll post when I can about what I can.

This trip is already helping me to appreciate the new perspective God has brought into my life this year to try and see everything as His blessing in my life. To be certain there have been more than a few things that have come my way this year that are unmistakable blessings. It's the rest of life coming at me that is often difficult to perceive as a blessing. Maybe something is difficult for me and I don't like that...but it's a blessing. Maybe I'm being pushed out of my comfort zone and I don't like that...but it's a blessing. And maybe getting a little lost with a haze of familial tension hanging in the air is not fun...but it's a blessing.

It's very strange to try and see everything as a blessing. Especially when those around you are unable to see. The weight of those around you can at times feel like a millstone dragging you by your neck to the bottom of the ocean. I will say that the more blessings I recognize the easier it is to cast the weight of that millstone to the depths of the sea and rise to the top.